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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Twisted Transistor

Korn Row? I cannot believe this. On the other hand, this is probably the only time you will see Harvey Hall on MTV's website. All I can say is wow.

~J

P.S. The title of this entry comes from a Korn song. I had to look Korn up online to get the name of a song. Just so you know...

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Keep it Loose, Keep it Tight

I was re-reading my last post and noticed a lot of errors. I appologize.

Anyway, after my pathetic post from Wednesday, my week picked up a bit. Thursday night I went to LindyGroove with Natalie Martin and Robert. It was so nice, a total Bako reunion. I was going to take the week off from LG to give Eric and I some space, but when Nat and Rob said they were coming, I couldn't miss that opportunity. It was pretty awkward with Eric, but I'm sure that will fade over time. Hopefully, we'll be able to be friends and dance again someday. Until then, though, I am still going to go dancing and have fun.

Friday night, I hung out with Nat Miller, Rebecca, Kristi and Nic. We had such a blast until I literally feel on my ass in front of everyone at Pomona and decided to go home. Seriously, though, it was so nice hanging out with four such strong, beautiful women. I am going to miss that so much next year. Hell, I am going to miss that four months from now. Ah, I can't think about it...

Yesterday I went to see a play for my Acting for Film and Television class with my friend David. The play was... good. Well, the elements of the play were good, like the acting, the set, the lighting, etc. I just had some problems with the script. Overall, though, the three women who carried the show were so impressive. It made me miss acting.

Well, again, I am writing here to procrastinate from doing "real" work. I desparately need to get going on the English half of my second chapter. Unfortunately, there isn't anyone breathing down my neck about it like for Philosophy, so I am finding it very hard to get motivated. My goal for today is to get a decent, thorough outline done and get the chapter written in the next few days. Wish me luck!

~J

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Little Old Lady(s) from Pasadena

I am so bored. The past few minutes I have been burning the midnight oil wrirting my thesis and a Philosophy of Science midterm. Now that I have the rough draft of my second chapter and my midterm turned in, I don't quite know what to do with myself. Sure, I could start on the second half of my thesis chapter, but, I ask, "where's the fun?" So, here I am at 9:45pm on a Weddnesday night, not knowing what to do with myself. La la la.

Okay, I must do something. Anything. I have watched every season of Simpsons that I own in the past few weeks. I have seen all my movies a hundre times. I don't want to do anything productive. Damn it!

Oh, good news though. It looks like Nat might be working for Scripps admissions next (please God!), so we might end up living in Pasadena together. Woo hoo! We would have so much fun! There's no way I would get bored, then. Now, I just need a job...

By the way, I have decided to name my posts after songs from now on. We'll see how long that lasts... :-)

~J

Sunday, February 19, 2006

All by myself...

Well, I am single again. I broke up with Eric tonight, which was so rough. He is such an amazing guy, but it just wasn't working. It was so unbelievably painful. I hate break-ups. But then again, who doesn't?

~J

Monday, February 13, 2006

Ch-ch-changes!

My life is in transition, which is normal for this point in time. But, it's all moving too fast. I feel like time is slipping away and I can never get it back.

I went to a job fair this weekend in Pasadena. My first attempt at beginning a "career." I don't think anything will come of it, but it was a good experience nonetheless. E! wants me to send my resume in at the beginning of April, so we'll see what happens there.

I found out today that my boss here at Scripps is leaving in April. I am really happy for her (the new job sounds great), but it's just one more change in a long series of changes that I didn't want to face this soon. I can't even think about graduation, but am being forced to because it's time to send out invitations and announcments. On that note, if any of you out there would like to come to graduation (it's only an hour long, supposedly), then let me know. I would be more than happy to have you. There is no limit on how many people can attend.

Anyway, last week was especially difficult, emotionally, and I am still trying to reconcile some things in my head. But, I am getting through it the best way I can. I have only had one mini-meltdown, which is good, but I think another one might be on its way.

In other news, Nat and I went to Culver City last night to see a play called Permanent Collection for her Acting for Social Change class. It was really amazing. It's too complicated to try and describe here, but if you ever have an opportunity to read/see it, please do. It's about race relations and it did what I believe Crash was trying to do. Don't get me wrong, I liked Crash, but the play was so much more moving, probably because it was live. It made me remember, though, how much I love theater. Ahh, I miss it sometimes.

Okay, I have to get going. I am trying to update more often, so I will post again really soon!
Jess

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Picture Update

I finally updated my pictures so here are the pics from this past weekend and Panama. Enjoy!

~Jess

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Daydream Believer

Okay, as promised, here my update.

Panama: It was amazing. Utterly and completely. Many of you have heard personal accounts, so I will only highlight here. Also, I am working dilligently (read: when I am supposed to be working on thesis) to update my photos, so soon you will be able to check those out. Anyway, Panama is a beautiful country, really. Both tropical (outside the city) and very modern (in the city). Probably the very coolest thing my dad and I did was go to visit a Chochoe Indian village on an island in the middle of this giant river in the depths of the jungle. It was amazing. We drove out to a spot where a Chochoe guide met us and canoed us to the island. There, we changed and the same guide canoed (is that even a word?) us further into the jungle to a "secret" swimming hole/waterfall. My dad and I swam around in the clearest most beautiful water. It was unbelievable. At one point, my dad turned to me and said, "Do you realize that this time one year ago, I was hooked up to chemo, wondering how much longer I had left. And now, I am here swimming in the jungle?" We both teared up. It was a surreal moment, and one that neither of us was sure was going to happen at all.

The whole reason we went to Panama was because my dad read a book about the construction of the famous Panama Canal (all you engineering folks out there might be interested in learning about it). When he got sick, he thought he would never be able to see it himself, so when he started getting better over the summer he decided he had better go now and I volunteered to go with him. The last thing we did there was take a four hour cruise of the actual canal. I didn't think I would love it, but I had no idea how boring it was actually going to turn out to be. Thank God I had the foresight to bring a book along. Apparently, I acquired the nickname "girl with the book," as I had a lot of people on the bus ride back into town call me that. Weird. Anyway, my dad really wanted to see it and I think he (kinda) enjoyed it, so it was worth it. Never again, though.

So, those are the highlights from my week in Panama. All in all, a fantastic way to kick off 2006. Already it is vastly superior to 2005. If you want to know more, just ask me. I love talking about it.

Okay, so on to the boy situation. It is official-- Eric and I are together. We've been dating since about November sometime, but we became official "boyfriend/girlfriend" January 20(?) or something. He's great. I am really happy. We met swing dancing (as you my know from reading this) and just really hit it off. He's met my family and Bako friends and I have met all his significant people. Everything is good. :-D I must admit, I was not looking for or anticipating a boyfriend this year at all. But sometimes people come along a you have a connection and things happen. I would be an idiot to throw that away just because it's not what I was looking for. Like a good friend told me today, just because he might not have been what I looking for just now could mean that he is exactly what I need right now. Or something like that.

And finally, Nat and I had our second Bakersfield adventure this past weekend and it was a blast. Friday night we went to see Capote (which I HIGHLY recommend to the film junkies out there) and then hung out with the usual suspects (being Becca, Chris and Robert now know as "Veggie Works Burrito," "Soft Taco," and "Hard Taco" I believe) and hit the bar scene in Bako, which is interesting to say the least. Nothhing particualy note worthy happened, it was just fun . Saturday night Nat and I met Rachel at Cafe Med for drinks and to have a Lust Party (long complicated inside joke). Basically, we all just needed some girl time, talking about boys, etc. Very Sex and the City. We each had a Stockholm 57 which I have decided is the BEST drink ever created. Ever. It's basically a lemon drop (lemon juice and vodka with a sugar rim) and champagne. Lemon, good. Vodka, good. Champagne, good.

After our lust party, we literally kidnapped Gabe, Becca, Rob, and Chris and forced them to go to Dock of the Bay (the new British pub in Bako) with us. At first, it was a little lame, but we are a group that knows how to create our own fun. Pretty soon, the ale was flowing and we were all singing along to CCR. Nice. Ronnie and his friend Monica met us there and upped the entertainment value considerably. Again, pictures to come soon, so keep checking my Pictures page. Some of the highlights from that evening were the unusual British condiments (Salad Cream or Spotted Dick anyone?) and the Great Chapstick-Off 2006 between Nat and Chris. Way too hard to explain. If I can figure it out, there is a fantastic video of the competition.

Anyway, I feel as though I have rambled long enough, so I should try and get some work done on my thesis before Scrubs tonight (Mandy Moore is on! Again, don't judge). Please comment, people, and let me know that you are out there! I am curious as to how many people actually read this blog...

Love and other indoor sports,
Jess

Go Sarah Tennessee!

Ha ha ha! I am finally posting! However, I am also watching the Bachelor with Nat (don't judge) so I will post tomorrow sometime when I am supposed to be working on my thesis. I have to update you about Panama, the boy situation, and this past weekend in Bako. So, tune in tomorrow. Same time, same channel!

<3,
Jess